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#supper : Burrito with homemade RE FRIED BEANS!! 😱 lettuce, pea sprouts, corn, peas, cheese. Banana bread. ———————————————————————————Despite me doing a big challenge yesterday I did ANOTHER one today because that’s how I beat my Eating Disorder! 
I have NEVER had re fried beans before and seeing all the ingredients that had to be put in almost scared me off the challenge. 
I have always said I hated beans but really I just didn’t give them a chance 😉
Thinking about beans reminds me of a story...
It was my first admission, for supper we received what I thought was a mistake. It was this big lump of brown lumpy stuff that I was required to eat and if I didn’t an ensure was on its way. But there was no way I would drink that horrid drink so once I found out it was CHILLI filled with tones of beans I wanted to skip the entire meal🤮 
At this time I refused to eat the beans even though I never tried them. I literally picked out every single bean in that chilli because I was that stubborn. 
But pay back hit me hard. Once the nurse saw this she made me eat a almond for every bean I picked out. 
And that’s how I learned that when it comes to recovery sometimes you just got to eat no matter what or else it will get you in the end. 😂💖
———————————————————————————-#burrito #burritos🌯 #refriedbeans #challengeyourself #challenges 
#ed #edsucks #edfighter #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eattolive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

#supper : Burrito with homemade RE FRIED BEANS!! 😱 lettuce, pea sprouts, corn, peas, cheese. Banana bread. ———————————————————————————Despite me doing a big challenge yesterday I did ANOTHER one today because that’s how I beat my Eating Disorder!
I have NEVER had re fried beans before and seeing all the ingredients that had to be put in almost scared me off the challenge.
I have always said I hated beans but really I just didn’t give them a chance 😉
Thinking about beans reminds me of a story...
It was my first admission, for supper we received what I thought was a mistake. It was this big lump of brown lumpy stuff that I was required to eat and if I didn’t an ensure was on its way. But there was no way I would drink that horrid drink so once I found out it was CHILLI filled with tones of beans I wanted to skip the entire meal🤮
At this time I refused to eat the beans even though I never tried them. I literally picked out every single bean in that chilli because I was that stubborn.
But pay back hit me hard. Once the nurse saw this she made me eat a almond for every bean I picked out.
And that’s how I learned that when it comes to recovery sometimes you just got to eat no matter what or else it will get you in the end. 😂💖
———————————————————————————- #burrito #burritos 🌯 #refriedbeans #challengeyourself #challenges
#ed #edsucks #edfighter #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eattolive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

27 1 21 minutes ago
Nothing makes me happier than a big ol cone of cruelty free indulgence 😍 love treats, but when I can have them without knowing another being was harmed in the making, well I have no real reason anymore to hold back as you can see 😂 one day when I recover I can make more eco friendly choices though, let’s just allow that to be modivation for now.

This week with my therapist we talked a lot about your child and adult self, I feel stuck transitioning😒 honestly, I’m a pretty hardened teen, I’m mature, I think, I have some pretty old school values and styles and it keeps me from getting along with my age group a lot 🙃 but, through middle school to know I’ve also known a lot of external and internal criticism and conditioned to a lot of being put in my place and working for approval, or avoiding disapproval of others😅in recovery I reflect this as I can’t seem to do it for my adult self who wants KIDS and JOBS AND FRIENDS my mind is blocked from that in the moment. I only tend to push through for a pat on the back and validation. It can’t continue though, becuase once the praise relaxes I need to be able to congratulate MYSELF and carry on with recovery, sans recognition. 
#anorexia #vegetarian #vegan #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #recovery #dessert #pancakes #FDOE #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #edsoldier #anawarrior #anasoldier #edfamily #edfighter #anafighter #fuckana #healthy #icecream  #froyo #protien #fruit

Nothing makes me happier than a big ol cone of cruelty free indulgence 😍 love treats, but when I can have them without knowing another being was harmed in the making, well I have no real reason anymore to hold back as you can see 😂 one day when I recover I can make more eco friendly choices though, let’s just allow that to be modivation for now.

This week with my therapist we talked a lot about your child and adult self, I feel stuck transitioning😒 honestly, I’m a pretty hardened teen, I’m mature, I think, I have some pretty old school values and styles and it keeps me from getting along with my age group a lot 🙃 but, through middle school to know I’ve also known a lot of external and internal criticism and conditioned to a lot of being put in my place and working for approval, or avoiding disapproval of others😅in recovery I reflect this as I can’t seem to do it for my adult self who wants KIDS and JOBS AND FRIENDS my mind is blocked from that in the moment. I only tend to push through for a pat on the back and validation. It can’t continue though, becuase once the praise relaxes I need to be able to congratulate MYSELF and carry on with recovery, sans recognition.
#anorexia #vegetarian #vegan #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #recovery #dessert #pancakes #FDOE #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #edsoldier #anawarrior #anasoldier #edfamily #edfighter #anafighter #fuckana #healthy #icecream #froyo #protien #fruit

57 0 2 hours ago
getting over C O M P E N S A T I O N ......
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as someone struggling with anorexia, i have conditioned a positive feedback loop when i compensate for my food. one of the most challenging things for me right now is being on exercise restriction. but it is forcing me to realize that i don’t need to compensate for eating. how crazy that is, i even have those thoughts. of course i need to eat. and while right now that might feel uncomfortable, jumping into the recovery void and trusting the process is the only way to get better at it .
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#ed #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #health #edfighter #anafighter #food #fdoe #fuckanorexia #fearfood #healthy #eatingdisorder #anawarrior #recovery #anarecovery #chooserecovery #fuckanorexia #fuckana #orthrexia #orthrexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery

getting over C O M P E N S A T I O N ......
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as someone struggling with anorexia, i have conditioned a positive feedback loop when i compensate for my food. one of the most challenging things for me right now is being on exercise restriction. but it is forcing me to realize that i don’t need to compensate for eating. how crazy that is, i even have those thoughts. of course i need to eat. and while right now that might feel uncomfortable, jumping into the recovery void and trusting the process is the only way to get better at it .
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#ed #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #health #edfighter #anafighter #food #fdoe #fuckanorexia #fearfood #healthy #eatingdisorder #anawarrior #recovery #anarecovery #chooserecovery #fuckanorexia #fuckana #orthrexia #orthrexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery

19 0 3 hours ago
im not in the place mentally right now. it’s really weird. im just off. im anxious and have bad body image... i can’t stop my brain from thinking. im just so overwhelmed and ugh... but for the first time, this is not making me restrict? •

i used to cut my calories when i didn’t feel good, but right now im not. i just don’t care about shit? im seeing the doctor tomorrow and im not excited. this morning i weighed myself on a scale (it’s really old so it’s not that accurate) but it said i maintained (or maybe even lost a tiny tiny bit). will see how that goes. •

thank you to everyone that responded to my story about the breathing. i think it’s air hunger, but the cause is unknown to me right. •

i had work from 5-9pm after school today, but i actually ate a little at lunch. it’s really really small (the vegetable) but still.. i was planning on having some things, but my dear @erinsrecovery messed up my plans. i was supposed to challenge myself to the oatmeal cookie because it’s something i love that scares me so much, but she told me she had fries (or crisps 🙄) and i started craving them. double challenge: had fries also from this place that i love. he fries are just amazing but there’s not nutritional value so i have to estimate which stresses me out. the thing is i was going to have a small fries, the cookie, and other stuff, but the lady gave me a big fries. i freaked out. FREAKED OUT. i have this problem where i can’t leave food... it’s really bad and annoying. and that’s what happened... i had it al, but because it’s mixed with anorexia, i cut on the other stuff.. i still ate more than normally though, like calories wise!!! vegetables, the plates of fries, and the cookie.

im not in the place mentally right now. it’s really weird. im just off. im anxious and have bad body image... i can’t stop my brain from thinking. im just so overwhelmed and ugh... but for the first time, this is not making me restrict? •

i used to cut my calories when i didn’t feel good, but right now im not. i just don’t care about shit? im seeing the doctor tomorrow and im not excited. this morning i weighed myself on a scale (it’s really old so it’s not that accurate) but it said i maintained (or maybe even lost a tiny tiny bit). will see how that goes. •

thank you to everyone that responded to my story about the breathing. i think it’s air hunger, but the cause is unknown to me right. •

i had work from 5-9pm after school today, but i actually ate a little at lunch. it’s really really small (the vegetable) but still.. i was planning on having some things, but my dear @erinsrecovery messed up my plans. i was supposed to challenge myself to the oatmeal cookie because it’s something i love that scares me so much, but she told me she had fries (or crisps 🙄) and i started craving them. double challenge: had fries also from this place that i love. he fries are just amazing but there’s not nutritional value so i have to estimate which stresses me out. the thing is i was going to have a small fries, the cookie, and other stuff, but the lady gave me a big fries. i freaked out. FREAKED OUT. i have this problem where i can’t leave food... it’s really bad and annoying. and that’s what happened... i had it al, but because it’s mixed with anorexia, i cut on the other stuff.. i still ate more than normally though, like calories wise!!! vegetables, the plates of fries, and the cookie.

34 4 3 hours ago
Dinner; sushi 🍣 ahh it was so good 😊 I feel like compared to others recovering I’m eating too much but idk let me know on your thoughts below and also today was really good because although I ate A LOT I felt happy and chill #recovery #pintparty #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #fooddiary #foodblog #recoverywin #anafighter #prorevovery #recoveryfighter #fearfood #foodporn

Dinner; sushi 🍣 ahh it was so good 😊 I feel like compared to others recovering I’m eating too much but idk let me know on your thoughts below and also today was really good because although I ate A LOT I felt happy and chill #recovery #pintparty #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #fooddiary #foodblog #recoverywin #anafighter #prorevovery #recoveryfighter #fearfood #foodporn

23 0 3 hours ago
Cena (22/05/19)
7:20p.m.

Sándwich integral de aguacate,tomate y queso➕leche descremada con hershey's liquido.

Postre: yogurt sin azúcar de fresa con trozos de fresa.

#anorexiatips #anorexiafigther #anorexiafight #anorexiacovery #anorexiarecuperacion #ana #anarecovery #anafighter #fuckyouana #figther #cena #postre #cenasaludable #anaymia #nodiet #diary #comida  #diariodecomidas
#TCA  #food #fearfood

Cena (22/05/19)
7:20p.m.

Sándwich integral de aguacate,tomate y queso➕leche descremada con hershey's liquido.

Postre: yogurt sin azúcar de fresa con trozos de fresa.

#anorexiatips #anorexiafigther #anorexiafight #anorexiacovery #anorexiarecuperacion #ana #anarecovery #anafighter #fuckyouana #figther #cena #postre #cenasaludable #anaymia #nodiet #diary #comida #diariodecomidas
#TCA #food #fearfood

18 1 3 hours ago
Dinner was VERY challenging. I am freeaking out!!! 😱😱 I got chicken noddle soup 🍲 , fruit 🍎 🍊 🍓, and grilled chicken 🐔 nuggets with BBQ sauce from Chika fil-a. 🤯I finished most of it...My mom suggested that we do take out tonight since it was just going to be me and her- without my brother and dad.😟 I am SO full and I feel REALLY guilty. 😭😭I feel like I shouldn’t have had this and am going to gain a ton of weight from this meal. 😷😩I’m trying to tap into my logical brain and tell myself that that’s impossible🤔... it’s just tough. 😥 People without eating disorders don’t dwell over everything they’ve eaten in the day. They eat and move on. ➡️I want to be able to do that one day. 🙏🏻 •••
EdFam #EdRecovery #Anorexia #Depression #Transman #LGBT#NoHate #Fighting  #Anxiety #PTSD #EdWarrior #EatingDisorder #AnorexiaRecovery #Ed #Ana #ProRecovery #AnaFighter #Trans #FTM #Food #EatingDisorderRecovery #TransGuy #MentalHealth #Transgender #LoveIsLove #Trauma #AnaRecovery

Dinner was VERY challenging. I am freeaking out!!! 😱😱 I got chicken noddle soup 🍲 , fruit 🍎 🍊 🍓, and grilled chicken 🐔 nuggets with BBQ sauce from Chika fil-a. 🤯I finished most of it...My mom suggested that we do take out tonight since it was just going to be me and her- without my brother and dad.😟 I am SO full and I feel REALLY guilty. 😭😭I feel like I shouldn’t have had this and am going to gain a ton of weight from this meal. 😷😩I’m trying to tap into my logical brain and tell myself that that’s impossible🤔... it’s just tough. 😥 People without eating disorders don’t dwell over everything they’ve eaten in the day. They eat and move on. ➡️I want to be able to do that one day. 🙏🏻 •••
EdFam #EdRecovery #Anorexia #Depression #Transman #LGBT #NoHate #Fighting #Anxiety #PTSD #EdWarrior #EatingDisorder #AnorexiaRecovery #Ed #Ana #ProRecovery #AnaFighter #Trans #FTM #Food #EatingDisorderRecovery #TransGuy #MentalHealth #Transgender #LoveIsLove #Trauma #AnaRecovery

25 2 4 hours ago
#lunch : Blueberry Oats with Blueberries, Chocolate Chip Bear Paw, cherries, almond milk. ———————————————————————————For lunch I had no idea what to have so I made this cute delicious bowl of oats! 
Throughout the entire day my ED has been screaming at me to stop all of these challenges. 
He would make lies that I would gain so much weight if I keep doing them, that I should not be having all these things. 
And even after this meal, my first thought was I am never having chocolate again. 
In my head I was like “yup I am not going to it just makes me fat and I don’t need it in my diet” 
I sat with this for a bit but then this other side of me was like “No Jayme avoiding these foods will keep you sick and your life goal isn’t to be a sick girl stuck at home. “
It’s quite tiring having this battle in my own head but I am going to just keep doing it. 
Even though I feel sick, I have nightmares and I don’t want to challenge myself I am just going to push through and keep on doing it 😌
———————————————————————————#oats #oatsarelife #oatsarethebest #foodie #oatsforlunch #behappy 
#ed #edsucks #edfighter #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eattolive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

#lunch : Blueberry Oats with Blueberries, Chocolate Chip Bear Paw, cherries, almond milk. ———————————————————————————For lunch I had no idea what to have so I made this cute delicious bowl of oats!
Throughout the entire day my ED has been screaming at me to stop all of these challenges.
He would make lies that I would gain so much weight if I keep doing them, that I should not be having all these things.
And even after this meal, my first thought was I am never having chocolate again.
In my head I was like “yup I am not going to it just makes me fat and I don’t need it in my diet”
I sat with this for a bit but then this other side of me was like “No Jayme avoiding these foods will keep you sick and your life goal isn’t to be a sick girl stuck at home. “
It’s quite tiring having this battle in my own head but I am going to just keep doing it.
Even though I feel sick, I have nightmares and I don’t want to challenge myself I am just going to push through and keep on doing it 😌
——————————————————————————— #oats #oatsarelife #oatsarethebest #foodie #oatsforlunch #behappy
#ed #edsucks #edfighter #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eattolive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

100 8 5 hours ago
Nightsnack tonight was challenging to say the least. THREE CHOCOLATE BISCUITS & NORMAL JELLY (in the past I’ve always had low cal jelly and I can’t even remember the last time I had chocolate biscuits!) #recoverywin 
I’m meant to be seeing my dietician tomoz....for the first time since being discharged and I’m nervous 😬 I just don’t want any grief I’ve got enough crap to deal with right now. I wish fighting this illness was easier 😭 #ana #anafooddiary #anawarrior #anafighter #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #edfam #realrecovery #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #edfamily #edwarrior #edsoldiers #edcommunity #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #fighter #fightana #beatana #fightanorexia #beatanorexia #inpatient #ifitdoesntchallengeyouitdoesntchangeyou #outsidemycomfortzone

Nightsnack tonight was challenging to say the least. THREE CHOCOLATE BISCUITS & NORMAL JELLY (in the past I’ve always had low cal jelly and I can’t even remember the last time I had chocolate biscuits!) #recoverywin
I’m meant to be seeing my dietician tomoz....for the first time since being discharged and I’m nervous 😬 I just don’t want any grief I’ve got enough crap to deal with right now. I wish fighting this illness was easier 😭 #ana #anafooddiary #anawarrior #anafighter #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #edfam #realrecovery #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #edfamily #edwarrior #edsoldiers #edcommunity #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #fighter #fightana #beatana #fightanorexia #beatanorexia #inpatient #ifitdoesntchallengeyouitdoesntchangeyou #outsidemycomfortzone

16 0 5 hours ago
I have been in #eatingdisorderrecovery for over 3 and a half years now, and while I’m happier and healthier than I’ve been in a long time, I’m feeling stuck. I’ve found myself at a recovery plateau. I’m comfortable with eating just enough, but no more. I’m comfortable moving less, but not too much less. I struggle with things like rest days, decadent treats and body image. I’m far along on my journey, but I’m not "there" yet.
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I’m sharing this to reassure you that struggles in recovery are normal. I’m sharing this in case there’s someone out there who feels like they “should” be further along in their recovery than they are. And I’m also sharing this to urge anyone who is stuck in quasi-recovery to KEEP ON PUSHING.
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I’m going to challenge myself and push past the boundaries of my recovery because even semi-recovered, my life is not what I want it to be. I still feel somewhat restricted around food and rigid about movement. I still determine my value based on my body more than I’d like. I want FULL RECOVERY, and to achieve that, I can’t stop here.
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Today, I’m starting by giving my body a day off from movement. As much as this is hard for me, I’m trying to enjoy the rest as much as I can! What are you doing to challenge your #eatingdisorder today?

I have been in #eatingdisorderrecovery for over 3 and a half years now, and while I’m happier and healthier than I’ve been in a long time, I’m feeling stuck. I’ve found myself at a recovery plateau. I’m comfortable with eating just enough, but no more. I’m comfortable moving less, but not too much less. I struggle with things like rest days, decadent treats and body image. I’m far along on my journey, but I’m not "there" yet.
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I’m sharing this to reassure you that struggles in recovery are normal. I’m sharing this in case there’s someone out there who feels like they “should” be further along in their recovery than they are. And I’m also sharing this to urge anyone who is stuck in quasi-recovery to KEEP ON PUSHING.
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I’m going to challenge myself and push past the boundaries of my recovery because even semi-recovered, my life is not what I want it to be. I still feel somewhat restricted around food and rigid about movement. I still determine my value based on my body more than I’d like. I want FULL RECOVERY, and to achieve that, I can’t stop here.
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Today, I’m starting by giving my body a day off from movement. As much as this is hard for me, I’m trying to enjoy the rest as much as I can! What are you doing to challenge your #eatingdisorder today?

40 3 6 hours ago
Lunch was this amazing pumpkin frittata!! With a side of cous cous that my mum made!! This was a win as they are both unknown items as mum didn’t measure and kinda made up the recipe! The frittata is from a local cafe near us in Melbourne and I thought I’ll crave it as the PUMPKIN overload got me!!

Lunch was this amazing pumpkin frittata!! With a side of cous cous that my mum made!! This was a win as they are both unknown items as mum didn’t measure and kinda made up the recipe! The frittata is from a local cafe near us in Melbourne and I thought I’ll crave it as the PUMPKIN overload got me!!

46 2 6 hours ago
Dinner tonight was 5 fish fingers, 8 large potato croquettes, and a scoop of mixed veggies. This dinner was pretty easy, although my mum let me chose which one I wanted out of two options which were the same size portions. Being allowed to make that decision was nerve racking to say the least as my eating disorder wanted to chose the one that was slightly smaller. So, I was standing at the counter, trying to figure out what plate contained less food, but there wasn’t really any discernable difference between the two. So when I picked my plate, I kept second guessing myself as my ED was telling me the other one was smaller. But you know what, so what if the other one was ever so slightly smaller. Does it really matter? NO! Having a few more crumbs or an extra cm of fish finger isn’t going to make me gain any weight, not even a gram, so there is no point wasting time comparing portions that are exactly the same. I have better things to do with my time than be controlled by my ED. I hope you all are doing well and continue to challenge yourselves each and every day. Keep fighting! #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #anafighter #beatana #anorexiarecovery

Dinner tonight was 5 fish fingers, 8 large potato croquettes, and a scoop of mixed veggies. This dinner was pretty easy, although my mum let me chose which one I wanted out of two options which were the same size portions. Being allowed to make that decision was nerve racking to say the least as my eating disorder wanted to chose the one that was slightly smaller. So, I was standing at the counter, trying to figure out what plate contained less food, but there wasn’t really any discernable difference between the two. So when I picked my plate, I kept second guessing myself as my ED was telling me the other one was smaller. But you know what, so what if the other one was ever so slightly smaller. Does it really matter? NO! Having a few more crumbs or an extra cm of fish finger isn’t going to make me gain any weight, not even a gram, so there is no point wasting time comparing portions that are exactly the same. I have better things to do with my time than be controlled by my ED. I hope you all are doing well and continue to challenge yourselves each and every day. Keep fighting! #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #anafighter #beatana #anorexiarecovery

20 1 6 hours ago
for dinner I had risotto with asparagus and burrata: not to brag, but it was delicious 🍛 rice is (obviously) one of my biggest fear food, but I refuse to let it have all this power over me; six months ago I never would have cooked it and now I ate my whole 80 gr portion 💪🏻: it might not be a big deal for other people but it is to me, so I’m celebrating how far I’ve come in my recovery (and that’s why I had dessert too 😋) 🎉🤟🏻💞 #edrecovery #edrecovering #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosa #fearfood #fearfoodwin #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter#mentalhealth #food #bodydismorphia #foodisfuel #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorder #restricting #recoverywin #ana #anarecovery #fightingana #fightinganorexia #anafighter

for dinner I had risotto with asparagus and burrata: not to brag, but it was delicious 🍛 rice is (obviously) one of my biggest fear food, but I refuse to let it have all this power over me; six months ago I never would have cooked it and now I ate my whole 80 gr portion 💪🏻: it might not be a big deal for other people but it is to me, so I’m celebrating how far I’ve come in my recovery (and that’s why I had dessert too 😋) 🎉🤟🏻💞 #edrecovery #edrecovering #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosa #fearfood #fearfoodwin #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #mentalhealth #food #bodydismorphia #foodisfuel #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorder #restricting #recoverywin #ana #anarecovery #fightingana #fightinganorexia #anafighter

25 1 6 hours ago
I'm back!!! 💖 I went through a relapse a few months ago that made me walk away so I could recover my strength. Now, I'm Ale 2.0 😎 I'm eating chocolate cereal and yogurt 🤤
Estoy de vuelta!!! 💖 Pasé por una recaída hace unos meses que me hizo alejarme para recuperar mi fuerza. Ahora, soy Ale 2.0 😎 estoy comiendo cereal de chocolate y yogurt 🤤

#anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #recovery #fuckyouana #fuckanorexia #eatit #anorexiasoldier #anorexiafighter #anawarrior #anorexiawarrior #anafighter #anasoldier #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #chocolatecereal #foodismedicine #fuckana #edsoldier #edfighter #foodisgood #anasoldier #survive #cerealandyogurt #youcandoit #recover #happiness

I'm back!!! 💖 I went through a relapse a few months ago that made me walk away so I could recover my strength. Now, I'm Ale 2.0 😎 I'm eating chocolate cereal and yogurt 🤤
Estoy de vuelta!!! 💖 Pasé por una recaída hace unos meses que me hizo alejarme para recuperar mi fuerza. Ahora, soy Ale 2.0 😎 estoy comiendo cereal de chocolate y yogurt 🤤

#anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #recovery #fuckyouana #fuckanorexia #eatit #anorexiasoldier #anorexiafighter #anawarrior #anorexiawarrior #anafighter #anasoldier #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #chocolatecereal #foodismedicine #fuckana #edsoldier #edfighter #foodisgood #anasoldier #survive #cerealandyogurt #youcandoit #recover #happiness

46 5 8 hours ago
Not the prettiest meal but a MASSIVE challenge 🐱 gotta love Mac n cheese ❤️ #anafighter #edrecovery #bodypositive #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bulimiafree #bulimiafighter #anorexiasucks #nodiet #anafighter #anawarrior

Not the prettiest meal but a MASSIVE challenge 🐱 gotta love Mac n cheese ❤️ #anafighter #edrecovery #bodypositive #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bulimiafree #bulimiafighter #anorexiasucks #nodiet #anafighter #anawarrior

12 0 8 hours ago
You ARE worthy❤️

You ARE worthy❤️

6 1 8 hours ago
#breakfast STRAWBERRY COCONUT YOGURT 😱, peanut butter toast, fruit and granola ----------------------------------------
CHALLENGE JAR😱
The last time I had Coconut yogurt was this time last year!!! So me trying this was hard because. Last year the time I had this was me going to my eating disorder it wasnt right to be then. Now me trying I absolutely love it ❤. I want to try the other kinds out ther now
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Overtime we must challenge the foods we use to eat before of eating disorders came into our life
 Because those foods we have challenged and you my still absolutely love that food or you have found a new food all together❤
Challenge yourself to have the foods you use to eat 💪 beat the ED ---------------------------------------- #keeponfighting #keepgoing #ed #edsucks #edfigher #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eatitlive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

#breakfast STRAWBERRY COCONUT YOGURT 😱, peanut butter toast, fruit and granola ----------------------------------------
CHALLENGE JAR😱
The last time I had Coconut yogurt was this time last year!!! So me trying this was hard because. Last year the time I had this was me going to my eating disorder it wasnt right to be then. Now me trying I absolutely love it ❤. I want to try the other kinds out ther now
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Overtime we must challenge the foods we use to eat before of eating disorders came into our life
Because those foods we have challenged and you my still absolutely love that food or you have found a new food all together❤
Challenge yourself to have the foods you use to eat 💪 beat the ED ---------------------------------------- #keeponfighting #keepgoing #ed #edsucks #edfigher #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eatitlive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #food #instafood #foodphotography

55 3 8 hours ago
Aber wenn man immer wieder dieselbe Route über eine Rasenfläche läuft, dann entsteht dort nach einiger Zeit ein neuer Weg. Am Anfang wird der Weg schwierig und holprig, aber umso öfter man ihn geht, desto leichter und bequemer wird er..♡ #healing #anarecovery #recovery #prorecovery #edrecovery #anafighter #nevergiveup #fightingformyfuture #fighting #futureminime #livelaughlove #bestrong #bebrave #findingmyself #recoveryjourney #pursuehappiness #icecream #eveningroutine #evening #healthy #strongnotskinny

Aber wenn man immer wieder dieselbe Route über eine Rasenfläche läuft, dann entsteht dort nach einiger Zeit ein neuer Weg. Am Anfang wird der Weg schwierig und holprig, aber umso öfter man ihn geht, desto leichter und bequemer wird er..♡ #healing #anarecovery #recovery #prorecovery #edrecovery #anafighter #nevergiveup #fightingformyfuture #fighting #futureminime #livelaughlove #bestrong #bebrave #findingmyself #recoveryjourney #pursuehappiness #icecream #eveningroutine #evening #healthy #strongnotskinny

20 1 9 hours ago
Also heute in der Schule habe ich mich gechallenged. Seit ungefähr einem Monat wird bei uns in der Schule nämlich Eis verkauft, was eine absolute Verarsche ist, warum gab es das damals nicht, also ich noch so in der 5. war?😂😒 Wie dem auch sei, ich habe mir vorgenommen da eins zu essen, bevor ich die Schule nach dem Abi dieses Jahr endgültig verlasse und hey, heute habe ich es durchgezoge und hatte so ein No Drama Lama Eis. Es war so cool ehrlich #recoverywin. Und auch die teuren aber super leckeren Pralinen von meinem Bruder habe ich aufgemacht und zwei gegessen, die waren auch echt richtig lecker. Generell habe ich mich heute gefühlt nur von Eis und Süßigkeiten ernährt (obwohl wenn ich genauer darüber nachdenke stimmt es nicht wirklich, aber es kommt mir so vor). Denn heute morgen habe ich mich auf die Waage gestellt und  offensichtlich hab ich ziemlich viel Gewicht verloren seit letzter Woche, obwohl ich nicht weniger gegessen habe als zuvor. Muss wohl am Sport und meinem Bewegungsdrang liegen, ich hab nicht erwartet, dass ich abgenommen habe. Ich hab mich zuerst wirklich gefreut. Aber ich weiß, dass ich es nicht sollte und dass es bedeutet, dass ich den Kampf verliere wenn ich so weiter mache. Deshalb habe ich beschlossen heute etwas mehr zu essen. Ich komm grade auch damit klar, aber etwas schuldig fühle ich mich doch.

Also heute in der Schule habe ich mich gechallenged. Seit ungefähr einem Monat wird bei uns in der Schule nämlich Eis verkauft, was eine absolute Verarsche ist, warum gab es das damals nicht, also ich noch so in der 5. war?😂😒 Wie dem auch sei, ich habe mir vorgenommen da eins zu essen, bevor ich die Schule nach dem Abi dieses Jahr endgültig verlasse und hey, heute habe ich es durchgezoge und hatte so ein No Drama Lama Eis. Es war so cool ehrlich #recoverywin . Und auch die teuren aber super leckeren Pralinen von meinem Bruder habe ich aufgemacht und zwei gegessen, die waren auch echt richtig lecker. Generell habe ich mich heute gefühlt nur von Eis und Süßigkeiten ernährt (obwohl wenn ich genauer darüber nachdenke stimmt es nicht wirklich, aber es kommt mir so vor). Denn heute morgen habe ich mich auf die Waage gestellt und offensichtlich hab ich ziemlich viel Gewicht verloren seit letzter Woche, obwohl ich nicht weniger gegessen habe als zuvor. Muss wohl am Sport und meinem Bewegungsdrang liegen, ich hab nicht erwartet, dass ich abgenommen habe. Ich hab mich zuerst wirklich gefreut. Aber ich weiß, dass ich es nicht sollte und dass es bedeutet, dass ich den Kampf verliere wenn ich so weiter mache. Deshalb habe ich beschlossen heute etwas mehr zu essen. Ich komm grade auch damit klar, aber etwas schuldig fühle ich mich doch.

12 1 9 hours ago
Love when you eat in front of someone and they think they’re actually Jesus the Christ Almighty because “iTs a MirAclE OmG i FixEd yOU” 🙄🙄iss true do (my meme, u can steal I don’t care lol) #depressionmemes #anxietymemes #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #anorexiamemes #edmemes #anxiousmemes #therapy #bulimiamemes #lonely #add #adhd #addmemes #adhdmemes #depression #whatislife #anafighter  #neda #memesthatkeepmefromendingitall #vinesthatcuremydepression #depression #kashootmyself #depressedmemes #camhs #camhsmemes #elysiansoul

Love when you eat in front of someone and they think they’re actually Jesus the Christ Almighty because “iTs a MirAclE OmG i FixEd yOU” 🙄🙄iss true do (my meme, u can steal I don’t care lol) #depressionmemes #anxietymemes #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #anorexiamemes #edmemes #anxiousmemes #therapy #bulimiamemes #lonely #add #adhd #addmemes #adhdmemes #depression #whatislife #anafighter #neda #memesthatkeepmefromendingitall #vinesthatcuremydepression #depression #kashootmyself #depressedmemes #camhs #camhsmemes #elysiansoul

34 0 9 hours ago
Casi nunca le hago foto a la merienda, pero aquí va una, que lleva:
🔹 Frutos rojos congelados
🔹 Yogur
🔹 Avena
🔹 Unas almendras
🔹 Una onza de chocolate
Y luego, como seguía con un poco de hambre, he cogido un albaricoque y más almendras.
#health #anorexiarecovery #anafighter #recovery #recoveryisworthit #healthy #ed #edwarrior #recover #food #foodpic #healthyfood #edrecovery #mentalhealth #ana #eat #comidareal #realfood #eatrealfood #realfooding #edfamily #anorexia #recovering #tca #heal #nourish #tcarecovery

Casi nunca le hago foto a la merienda, pero aquí va una, que lleva:
🔹 Frutos rojos congelados
🔹 Yogur
🔹 Avena
🔹 Unas almendras
🔹 Una onza de chocolate
Y luego, como seguía con un poco de hambre, he cogido un albaricoque y más almendras.
#health #anorexiarecovery #anafighter #recovery #recoveryisworthit #healthy #ed #edwarrior #recover #food #foodpic #healthyfood #edrecovery #mentalhealth #ana #eat #comidareal #realfood #eatrealfood #realfooding #edfamily #anorexia #recovering #tca #heal #nourish #tcarecovery

33 0 9 hours ago
#foodbook 22.05.19 
#śniadanie Omlet z przepisu @natka_recovery z dodatkiem marchewki + skyr malinowy i owoce
#2śniadanie kanapka z warzywami szynką i masłem + batonik 
#obiad kopytka pół z ketchupem i pół z cynamonem/nie mogłam się zdecydować:") /
#podwieczorek kostka czekolady od taty
#kolacja kanapki 3 kromki 1 z twarogiem i kiełkami A 2 z makrela masłem i pomidorem
+ @dobrakaloria orzech i kakao
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Ten ostatni baton to taki na dobicie chociaż nie wiem czy był potrzebny
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#mocdodatków #mocdodatkow .
#recovery
#recoverywin #anafighter #anafight #anoreksjanervosa #anorexiafighter #anorexiaproblems #healthyfood #fulldayofeating #sweet #sweetbreakfast #słodkieśniadanie #fearfood #fdoe #dietabezdiety #edrecovery #edrecovering #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #zaburzeniaodżywiania #whatieatinaday
#eatingdisorderecovery

#foodbook 22.05.19
#śniadanie Omlet z przepisu @natka_recovery z dodatkiem marchewki + skyr malinowy i owoce
#2śniadanie kanapka z warzywami szynką i masłem + batonik
#obiad kopytka pół z ketchupem i pół z cynamonem/nie mogłam się zdecydować:") /
#podwieczorek kostka czekolady od taty
#kolacja kanapki 3 kromki 1 z twarogiem i kiełkami A 2 z makrela masłem i pomidorem
+ @dobrakaloria orzech i kakao
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Ten ostatni baton to taki na dobicie chociaż nie wiem czy był potrzebny
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#mocdodatków #mocdodatkow .
#recovery
#recoverywin #anafighter #anafight #anoreksjanervosa #anorexiafighter #anorexiaproblems #healthyfood #fulldayofeating #sweet #sweetbreakfast #słodkieśniadanie #fearfood #fdoe #dietabezdiety #edrecovery #edrecovering #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #zaburzeniaodżywiania #whatieatinaday
#eatingdisorderecovery

77 3 10 hours ago
Always a struggle to eat Wednesdays as not weighed until after lunch so sadly it’s been an ED day!! Post weigh in cheeky cider and burrito for dinner #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #anafighter #edrecovery #mentalhealth #anarecovery #anorexia

Always a struggle to eat Wednesdays as not weighed until after lunch so sadly it’s been an ED day!! Post weigh in cheeky cider and burrito for dinner #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #anafighter #edrecovery #mentalhealth #anarecovery #anorexia

17 0 10 hours ago
Night snack/supper 💛I’m supposed to eat supper everyday, but I haven’t lately. I came home 8.30 because I had soccer practice. I try as hard I can to not eat after 8 pm as it scares me and one of my “ Ed rules.” Another fear is cheese and guess what? I ate my supper 8.45 pm + I voluntarily had cheese on one of my slices 😻 #recoverywin thank you so much for all the nice and supporting dm’s I got🥰 love all of you guys, keep fighting, I believe in you! 
#eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #prorecovery #anafighter #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #anafighter #anawarrior #ednos #bulimiarecovery #bedrecovery #mentalillness

Night snack/supper 💛I’m supposed to eat supper everyday, but I haven’t lately. I came home 8.30 because I had soccer practice. I try as hard I can to not eat after 8 pm as it scares me and one of my “ Ed rules.” Another fear is cheese and guess what? I ate my supper 8.45 pm + I voluntarily had cheese on one of my slices 😻 #recoverywin thank you so much for all the nice and supporting dm’s I got🥰 love all of you guys, keep fighting, I believe in you!
#eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #prorecovery #anafighter #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #anafighter #anawarrior #ednos #bulimiarecovery #bedrecovery #mentalillness

43 1 10 hours ago
• ROASTED CAULIFLOWER • this is one of my favourite evening meals. As a child I never liked cauliflower. Why? It smells weird.. Nowadays I think the smell hasn’t change, but I love the taste of it! I put my cauliflower for like 20 minutes in the airfryer and that’s it. Love it! What’s your favourite meal? 
#eatittobeatit #healthy #healthyfood #wanttobehealthyagain #fearfood #fighter #anafighter #anorexiafighter #ed #edfighter #edwarrior #myfight #strenght #quilt #myjourney #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recoveringdutchie #dutchrecovery #proud2bme #motivate #motivation #dinner #cauliflower #callowfit #callowfitbenelux #garlicsauce #veggieburger

• ROASTED CAULIFLOWER • this is one of my favourite evening meals. As a child I never liked cauliflower. Why? It smells weird.. Nowadays I think the smell hasn’t change, but I love the taste of it! I put my cauliflower for like 20 minutes in the airfryer and that’s it. Love it! What’s your favourite meal?
#eatittobeatit #healthy #healthyfood #wanttobehealthyagain #fearfood #fighter #anafighter #anorexiafighter #ed #edfighter #edwarrior #myfight #strenght #quilt #myjourney #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recoveringdutchie #dutchrecovery #proud2bme #motivate #motivation #dinner #cauliflower #callowfit #callowfitbenelux #garlicsauce #veggieburger

35 6 10 hours ago
#Tea is curry and egg fried rice 😊⁣
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The last few weeks have been quite difficult really, been discussing with R today about asking to be referred back to therapy as I was discharged a few weeks ago for not engaging properly 🙄 tbh I don’t want to at all, did not click with my therapist at all 😂 but I know I need to do something 😔⁣
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#anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #anafighter #fuckana #edwarrior #edfight #naourishnotpunish #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #recovery #calories #strongerthanana #realrecovery #nomorerestriction #anorexia #beatingana #smallstepscount #strongnotskinny #edfamily #ed #anawho #fearfoods #mentalheath #eatingdisorders #foodismedicine #mentalhealthawareness⁣

#Tea is curry and egg fried rice 😊⁣

The last few weeks have been quite difficult really, been discussing with R today about asking to be referred back to therapy as I was discharged a few weeks ago for not engaging properly 🙄 tbh I don’t want to at all, did not click with my therapist at all 😂 but I know I need to do something 😔⁣

#anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #anafighter #fuckana #edwarrior #edfight #naourishnotpunish #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #recovery #calories #strongerthanana #realrecovery #nomorerestriction #anorexia #beatingana #smallstepscount #strongnotskinny #edfamily #ed #anawho #fearfoods #mentalheath #eatingdisorders #foodismedicine #mentalhealthawareness

39 1 10 hours ago
Food is meant to bring people together. The freedom to share a meal with your family is worth recovering for. Tonight, my sister came home from university and so my mum spontaneously pulled out a bottle of prosecco. Of course I freaked out at this unexpected dilemma. I wanted so badly to be part of that moment of celebration. So I had a half a glass. Yes, I'm not at the point where I can spontaneously drink prosecco with dinner. But if I do something each day that scares my ED, then I might one day enjoy that freedom. (Dinner tonight was a repeat of a few nights ago - yummy prawn and avocado linguine 👏🏽👏🏽) ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ #family #love #positivitypage #pasta 
#anorexiarecovery #feelthefear #eatittobeatit #edawareness #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexiarecovery  #food #mentalhealth #healthyeating #anorexiafighter  #mealprep #healthy #foodfreedom #strongnotskinny #bodypositive #recoverypositive #selflove #fuckana #positivity #mentalhealthawareness #mindfulness #anafighter #recoverymeals

Food is meant to bring people together. The freedom to share a meal with your family is worth recovering for. Tonight, my sister came home from university and so my mum spontaneously pulled out a bottle of prosecco. Of course I freaked out at this unexpected dilemma. I wanted so badly to be part of that moment of celebration. So I had a half a glass. Yes, I'm not at the point where I can spontaneously drink prosecco with dinner. But if I do something each day that scares my ED, then I might one day enjoy that freedom. (Dinner tonight was a repeat of a few nights ago - yummy prawn and avocado linguine 👏🏽👏🏽) ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ #family #love #positivitypage #pasta
#anorexiarecovery #feelthefear #eatittobeatit #edawareness #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexiarecovery #food #mentalhealth #healthyeating #anorexiafighter #mealprep #healthy #foodfreedom #strongnotskinny #bodypositive #recoverypositive #selflove #fuckana #positivity #mentalhealthawareness #mindfulness #anafighter #recoverymeals

27 5 10 hours ago
I’ve been getting a lot of questions about binging in recovery lately. It is one of the most scary things for a lot of us and leaves us feeling totally out of control and disgusted in ourselves. Here are my to tips to stop binging:
1- eat regularly- this is the no.1 tip I have. A lot of the time binges happen because your body is crying out for food but you have been denying it. Eating regularly shows your body food is never far away and so you might be less likely to binge.
2- I find pairing a trigger food (for me this was things like chocolate) with a “safe” food e.g. fruit. Now it is important to do this for the right reasons. Don’t put vegetables in your pasta to make it less calories or be “more for less” do it because you are choosing to nourish your body and mind with the food they crave.
3- don’t restrict yourself from any food. You can have it all. Nothing is off limits. I tend to binge on the food I deem as “bad”. If you loose the good and bad labels and just eat you won’t be craving all the foods you wouldn’t let yourself have in such a way you feel the need to binge.
4- talk to someone. If your binging is really distressing you then seek help from friends, family, doctors etc. It can be hard to talk about as a lot of us feel great shame about it but there is NOTHING to be ashamed of.
5- the most important thing is to be kind to yourself. I still binge occasionally and no one is perfect. If you do binge forgive yourself and move on. Don’t purge, over exercise or restrict as it will only lead to more binges. Move on. Your life isn’t going to end, you aren’t going to gain a ton of weight, you aren’t weak or disgusting . You are a brave and strong and you can go back to eating how you normally would with no guilt.
Obvs I am no doctor but I struggle with binges sometimes. That being said, I think binges are often mistaken for extreme hunger, or even normal hunger. It is normal and healthy to eat huge amounts of food when in recovery from restrictive EDs not a binge at all! And some people count having a chocolate bar or a packet of crisps as a binge, which to most would just seem like a normal part of a balanced life.
Anyhow I hope this helps someone.❤️

I’ve been getting a lot of questions about binging in recovery lately. It is one of the most scary things for a lot of us and leaves us feeling totally out of control and disgusted in ourselves. Here are my to tips to stop binging:
1- eat regularly- this is the no.1 tip I have. A lot of the time binges happen because your body is crying out for food but you have been denying it. Eating regularly shows your body food is never far away and so you might be less likely to binge.
2- I find pairing a trigger food (for me this was things like chocolate) with a “safe” food e.g. fruit. Now it is important to do this for the right reasons. Don’t put vegetables in your pasta to make it less calories or be “more for less” do it because you are choosing to nourish your body and mind with the food they crave.
3- don’t restrict yourself from any food. You can have it all. Nothing is off limits. I tend to binge on the food I deem as “bad”. If you loose the good and bad labels and just eat you won’t be craving all the foods you wouldn’t let yourself have in such a way you feel the need to binge.
4- talk to someone. If your binging is really distressing you then seek help from friends, family, doctors etc. It can be hard to talk about as a lot of us feel great shame about it but there is NOTHING to be ashamed of.
5- the most important thing is to be kind to yourself. I still binge occasionally and no one is perfect. If you do binge forgive yourself and move on. Don’t purge, over exercise or restrict as it will only lead to more binges. Move on. Your life isn’t going to end, you aren’t going to gain a ton of weight, you aren’t weak or disgusting . You are a brave and strong and you can go back to eating how you normally would with no guilt.
Obvs I am no doctor but I struggle with binges sometimes. That being said, I think binges are often mistaken for extreme hunger, or even normal hunger. It is normal and healthy to eat huge amounts of food when in recovery from restrictive EDs not a binge at all! And some people count having a chocolate bar or a packet of crisps as a binge, which to most would just seem like a normal part of a balanced life.
Anyhow I hope this helps someone.❤️

100 4 10 hours ago
Freunde, ich möchte heute mal ein kleines Rezept teilen (in meinem letzten Post sieht man das auch schon, diese komischen braunen Würfel): gebackene Tofuwürfel. Tofu ist ziemlich geschmackslos, ich weiß, aber grade dadurch lässt sich auch einfach echt viel mit machen. Marinieren oder eben mit einer Kruste backen, und tbh, das ist der Shit, für den es sich zu leben lohnt 👌👌⠀
Ich nehme dazu ⠀
100-150g Tofu, in große Würfel geschnitten⠀
1 gehäufter TL Stärke⠀
1-2 EL Olivenöl (nein, ohne funktioniert es nicht, Wasser ist auch kein Ersatz)⠀
Gewürze nach Wahl⠀
0/ Den Backofen auf 180°C vorwärmen⠀
1/ Die Tofuwürfel müssen erstmal noch 30-45min in zwischen zwei Tuchschichten ausgepresst werden, damit das Wasser rausgeht. Dafür einfach 1-2 schwere Bücher auf die mit Tuch bedeckten Tofuwürfel legen.⠀
2/ Am einfachsten ist es, wenn ihr Tofuwürfel und Öl in eine Brotdose gebt (passt auf, dass sie keine Löcher hat!), und dann schüttelt. Mit der Dose in der Hand tanzen klappt übrigens auch und macht Spaß 🕺 ⠀
3/ Stärke und die Gewürze mischen, dann in die Dose geben und weiter schütteln/tanzen, bis alle Würfel leicht bedeckt sind.⠀
4/ Die Tofuwürfel auf ein mit Backpapier ausgelegtes Backbleck verteilen und für 13-15min in den Ofen.⠀
5/ Die Tofuwürfel jeweils einmal wenden, dann nochmal für 13-15min in den Ofen.⠀
6/ Die Tofuwürfel aus dem Ofen holen und genießen! Ich esse dazu gerne Reis und gebratenes Gemüse 🥕, ich healthly gurl.⠀
Kennt ihr noch gute Tofurezepte?⠀
🌻⠀
#anarecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfam #essstörung #magersucht #recipe #tofu #bakedtofu #vegan #healthy #tasty #veganrecipes #tofurecipes #rezept #vegandeutschland #gesund #healthyrecipes #veganbowl

Freunde, ich möchte heute mal ein kleines Rezept teilen (in meinem letzten Post sieht man das auch schon, diese komischen braunen Würfel): gebackene Tofuwürfel. Tofu ist ziemlich geschmackslos, ich weiß, aber grade dadurch lässt sich auch einfach echt viel mit machen. Marinieren oder eben mit einer Kruste backen, und tbh, das ist der Shit, für den es sich zu leben lohnt 👌👌⠀
Ich nehme dazu ⠀
100-150g Tofu, in große Würfel geschnitten⠀
1 gehäufter TL Stärke⠀
1-2 EL Olivenöl (nein, ohne funktioniert es nicht, Wasser ist auch kein Ersatz)⠀
Gewürze nach Wahl⠀
0/ Den Backofen auf 180°C vorwärmen⠀
1/ Die Tofuwürfel müssen erstmal noch 30-45min in zwischen zwei Tuchschichten ausgepresst werden, damit das Wasser rausgeht. Dafür einfach 1-2 schwere Bücher auf die mit Tuch bedeckten Tofuwürfel legen.⠀
2/ Am einfachsten ist es, wenn ihr Tofuwürfel und Öl in eine Brotdose gebt (passt auf, dass sie keine Löcher hat!), und dann schüttelt. Mit der Dose in der Hand tanzen klappt übrigens auch und macht Spaß 🕺 ⠀
3/ Stärke und die Gewürze mischen, dann in die Dose geben und weiter schütteln/tanzen, bis alle Würfel leicht bedeckt sind.⠀
4/ Die Tofuwürfel auf ein mit Backpapier ausgelegtes Backbleck verteilen und für 13-15min in den Ofen.⠀
5/ Die Tofuwürfel jeweils einmal wenden, dann nochmal für 13-15min in den Ofen.⠀
6/ Die Tofuwürfel aus dem Ofen holen und genießen! Ich esse dazu gerne Reis und gebratenes Gemüse 🥕, ich healthly gurl.⠀
Kennt ihr noch gute Tofurezepte?⠀
🌻⠀
#anarecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfam #essstörung #magersucht #recipe #tofu #bakedtofu #vegan #healthy #tasty #veganrecipes #tofurecipes #rezept #vegandeutschland #gesund #healthyrecipes #veganbowl

66 5 10 hours ago
Ma salade du soir : concombres 🥒 melon 🍈, crevettes 🦐 et des tomates/carottes râpées hors photo🥗😋
Dessert : Yaourt à la vanille et framboises ❤️
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J’adoooore les crevettes 🦐 Bon par contre c’est hyper relou à décortiquer et à préparer 😂 mais ça vaut le coup !
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Continuez de vous battre chaque jour ! N’abandonnez pas et croyez en vous !!🙏🏻
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Ma salade du soir : concombres 🥒 melon 🍈, crevettes 🦐 et des tomates/carottes râpées hors photo🥗😋
Dessert : Yaourt à la vanille et framboises ❤️
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J’adoooore les crevettes 🦐 Bon par contre c’est hyper relou à décortiquer et à préparer 😂 mais ça vaut le coup !
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Continuez de vous battre chaque jour ! N’abandonnez pas et croyez en vous !!🙏🏻
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46 4 10 hours ago
We were supposed to go to eat out with my dad, so he said to wait for him to come, that we would go to eat lunch. In the end we drove to God knows where and kinda got "lost". So after a couple of HOURS of driving around (while super hangry😡) we just came home at 7 PM and my dad didn't even eat, but I just said that NO ONE TOUCH THE SAUSAGES! And cooked the rest of the whole pack wit eggwhites and veggies, toasted some bread and just went outside🤣. Now I'm full but I still have to have 2 snacks and dinner😶. Really want to just have fresubin as a snack, BUT I WILL TRY TO JUST HAVE A REAL SNACK! it's 21:30 still full, but will try to have a snack soon. After that dinner, and then night snack 😂. NO SLEEP FOR ME TODAY🤭. PS: Can I just have a NORMAL ice cream pint party to make up for afternoon snack?
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#recovery #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #fuckanorexia #recoverywin #anorexia #edwarrior #анорексия #восстановление #foodisfuel #renourish #eatittobeatit #boobsnotbones #ana #mia #beatana #recoverywin #syömishäiriö #anafighter #food #fooddiary #foodblog #рпп #fresubin #nutridrink #ensure #foodporn

We were supposed to go to eat out with my dad, so he said to wait for him to come, that we would go to eat lunch. In the end we drove to God knows where and kinda got "lost". So after a couple of HOURS of driving around (while super hangry😡) we just came home at 7 PM and my dad didn't even eat, but I just said that NO ONE TOUCH THE SAUSAGES! And cooked the rest of the whole pack wit eggwhites and veggies, toasted some bread and just went outside🤣. Now I'm full but I still have to have 2 snacks and dinner😶. Really want to just have fresubin as a snack, BUT I WILL TRY TO JUST HAVE A REAL SNACK! it's 21:30 still full, but will try to have a snack soon. After that dinner, and then night snack 😂. NO SLEEP FOR ME TODAY🤭. PS: Can I just have a NORMAL ice cream pint party to make up for afternoon snack?
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#recovery #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #fuckanorexia #recoverywin #anorexia #edwarrior #анорексия #восстановление #foodisfuel #renourish #eatittobeatit #boobsnotbones #ana #mia #beatana #recoverywin #syömishäiriö #anafighter #food #fooddiary #foodblog #рпп #fresubin #nutridrink #ensure #foodporn

29 0 10 hours ago
GIORNO 26📅🏥🎗
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#merenda delle 16:00 con:
🌻100ml di #integratore al #caffé ☕
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Stasera invece #cena 🍽😋con:
🌻2✌🏻fette di #prosciuttocotto 🐷sgrassato un casino
🌻#insalata🥗 con 1🥄di olio EVO
🌻30g di #paneintegrale 🍞(ho tolto la mollica)
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Vi giuro che l'integratore al caffé☕ é super buono!🤤
Oggi un'altra vittoria🏆 per me 💪🏻perché ho mangiato 2 fette di prosciutto e non 1(!)😱. La mollica la tolgo perché non mi piace.🤢
Stasera é arrivata una nuova compagna di stanza👭. Ne ho cambiate 4 in tutto il mio ricovero qui, e sicuramente anche lei se ne andrà prima di me😒. Domani spero di mangiare il più possibile, cosi per la pesata di venerdì spero di non aver perso altro peso! 😖
Pomeriggio noioso, ho passato del tempo alla finestra🖼 del bagno a meditare ogni tanto🧘🏻. Mi ha fatto bene😊. Stamattina visita con la psicologa ed é andata abbastanza bene, anche domani avrò l'incontro e sono contenta. 😆
Ciao💖
#anoressia#anoressianervosa#anoressiaitalia#anororexiarecovery#edrecovery#dca#ed#recovery#dayhospital#ospedale#siamopiufortinoi🏆#diarioalimentare#fightanorexia#ana#anafight#anafighter#fuckana#fuckanoressia#fuckanorexia#lunch#lunchtime#anorexiarecover#anorexiaproblems

GIORNO 26📅🏥🎗


#merenda delle 16:00 con:
🌻100ml di #integratore al #caffé


Stasera invece #cena 🍽😋con:
🌻2✌🏻fette di #prosciuttocotto 🐷sgrassato un casino
🌻 #insalata 🥗 con 1🥄di olio EVO
🌻30g di #paneintegrale 🍞(ho tolto la mollica)


Vi giuro che l'integratore al caffé☕ é super buono!🤤
Oggi un'altra vittoria🏆 per me 💪🏻perché ho mangiato 2 fette di prosciutto e non 1(!)😱. La mollica la tolgo perché non mi piace.🤢
Stasera é arrivata una nuova compagna di stanza👭. Ne ho cambiate 4 in tutto il mio ricovero qui, e sicuramente anche lei se ne andrà prima di me😒. Domani spero di mangiare il più possibile, cosi per la pesata di venerdì spero di non aver perso altro peso! 😖
Pomeriggio noioso, ho passato del tempo alla finestra🖼 del bagno a meditare ogni tanto🧘🏻. Mi ha fatto bene😊. Stamattina visita con la psicologa ed é andata abbastanza bene, anche domani avrò l'incontro e sono contenta. 😆
Ciao💖
#anoressia #anoressianervosa #anoressiaitalia #anororexiarecovery #edrecovery #dca #ed #recovery #dayhospital #ospedale #siamopiufortinoi 🏆 #diarioalimentare #fightanorexia #ana #anafight #anafighter #fuckana #fuckanoressia #fuckanorexia #lunch #lunchtime #anorexiarecover #anorexiaproblems

71 0 11 hours ago

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When I've eat too much I feel guilty, when I've eat too little, I feel bad too. All the time I can't find balance 🙁 I've eaten everything, at first I was happy, but later I just felt wrong. My mood and feelings in recovery are variable and different, but nevertheless, I'm really glad to doing this, that my nutrition is better...
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When I've eat too much I feel guilty, when I've eat too little, I feel bad too. All the time I can't find balance 🙁 I've eaten everything, at first I was happy, but later I just felt wrong. My mood and feelings in recovery are variable and different, but nevertheless, I'm really glad to doing this, that my nutrition is better...
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136 11 15 hours ago
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155 2 21 May, 2019
Good afternoon fighter 🍯
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Part two of the 900 follower challenge !!! I asked you today morning at my story which fear food I should have for breakfast and you decided for pancakes 😱🥞
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I loved pancakes before my ED but after that I was so afraid about eating this because of the oil and the ,,unhealthy‘‘ But today I challenged myself with this fear and baked it in real coconut oil !!
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Also added cinnamon and sugar +honey (all big fears ) 
And apple sauce and hot berries ..❤️🍯
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I can tell you it tasted amazing ..but after eating this I just felt bed I had such a bad mood because Ana was sooo loud !! But I ate my usual lunch and today evening I will also eat normal dinner !!
In Recovery we Must challenge ourselves and i‘m happy that I challenged myself with pancakes because these are delicious.. and it shows me that recovery is worth it because the food that I eat and ate are so delicious and my body and mindset  gets stronger every time I challenge myself .. even if it’s hard we must do it !!!!
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Recipe for the pancakes :
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2 eggs 
40g flour 
1 big banana 
A little baking powder 
And a bit vanilla sugar ..!
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Mix everything together with a blender so that a thick dough arises .. then bake it with oil in a pen ( 1/2 minuets on every Side ) and after that enjoy it with a topping you like 🍯
( these are fluffy sweet  pancakes )
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Good afternoon fighter 🍯
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Part two of the 900 follower challenge !!! I asked you today morning at my story which fear food I should have for breakfast and you decided for pancakes 😱🥞
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I loved pancakes before my ED but after that I was so afraid about eating this because of the oil and the ,,unhealthy‘‘ But today I challenged myself with this fear and baked it in real coconut oil !!
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Also added cinnamon and sugar +honey (all big fears )
And apple sauce and hot berries ..❤️🍯
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I can tell you it tasted amazing ..but after eating this I just felt bed I had such a bad mood because Ana was sooo loud !! But I ate my usual lunch and today evening I will also eat normal dinner !!
In Recovery we Must challenge ourselves and i‘m happy that I challenged myself with pancakes because these are delicious.. and it shows me that recovery is worth it because the food that I eat and ate are so delicious and my body and mindset gets stronger every time I challenge myself .. even if it’s hard we must do it !!!!
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Recipe for the pancakes :
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2 eggs
40g flour
1 big banana
A little baking powder
And a bit vanilla sugar ..!
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Mix everything together with a blender so that a thick dough arises .. then bake it with oil in a pen ( 1/2 minuets on every Side ) and after that enjoy it with a topping you like 🍯
( these are fluffy sweet pancakes )
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180 2 14 hours ago
Bonsoir🌙! J'espère que votre lundi c'est bien passé, ça y est, le plus dur est fait! Aujourd'hui fut une bonne journée avec seulement une heure de cours (Merci les profs absents😊). Sur la photo, un dessert d'il y a quelque temps déjà mais dont je garde un délicieux souvenir: un chocolat🍫 liégeois🍦avec tout plein de chantilly! 
Je souhaite aussi beaucoup de courage à tous les bacheliers ( @poositive.miind ,tu vas assurer à ton bac, promis!), on a reçu les convocations aujourd'hui dans la classe😓, ça se précise! 
Prenez soin de vous et passez une belle soirée ! 
#edfighter #edrecovery #edfam #anafighter #anawarrior #mangermieux #mangersain #recoverywin #mangerequilibre #alimentation #chocolat

Bonsoir🌙! J'espère que votre lundi c'est bien passé, ça y est, le plus dur est fait! Aujourd'hui fut une bonne journée avec seulement une heure de cours (Merci les profs absents😊). Sur la photo, un dessert d'il y a quelque temps déjà mais dont je garde un délicieux souvenir: un chocolat🍫 liégeois🍦avec tout plein de chantilly!
Je souhaite aussi beaucoup de courage à tous les bacheliers ( @poositive.miind ,tu vas assurer à ton bac, promis!), on a reçu les convocations aujourd'hui dans la classe😓, ça se précise!
Prenez soin de vous et passez une belle soirée !
#edfighter #edrecovery #edfam #anafighter #anawarrior #mangermieux #mangersain #recoverywin #mangerequilibre #alimentation #chocolat

194 7 13 May, 2019
HAPPY EASTER FOLKS. The Lord has risen and life is lovely, am I right, or am I right?
Breakfast was some cinnamon rolls, actually 4, there’s one not pictured cause it was a bonus roll I guess haha. But yum! I have loved those my entire life. I used to eat like eight at a time when I was a kid hahah. 
For lunch, we went to a nice brunch buffet downtown. For my first round haha, I got an omelet with veggies and cheese, some potatoes, salmon, and bacon, plus a little fruit. I didn’t completely finish the omelet, bacon, or potatoes. The whole plate was shiny from the grease, and those three foods were the main culprits. Grease like that really bothers me, so I didn’t eat it all. But. Plate two. I got more fruit! The watermelon was lavender infused, and I also had a lavender bar. Lavender in food is such a weird experience and I don’t know how I feel about it haha. Anyone else had lavender food stuff? If so, whatcha think?? But yeah! Desserts. A pink champagne macaron, muffin things (I freakin love muffins), chocolate cake, chocolate strawberries aaand yeah. Twas yummy overall! 
Also, throughout the day, had some of these classic bunny cookies hehe. 
Then for dinner, I had a bowl of multigrain Cheerios. I wasn’t super hungry after all that lunch. But, I’ll probably snack on candy tonight while I try to finish my thesis haha. 
How was your Easter?🐣

HAPPY EASTER FOLKS. The Lord has risen and life is lovely, am I right, or am I right?
Breakfast was some cinnamon rolls, actually 4, there’s one not pictured cause it was a bonus roll I guess haha. But yum! I have loved those my entire life. I used to eat like eight at a time when I was a kid hahah.
For lunch, we went to a nice brunch buffet downtown. For my first round haha, I got an omelet with veggies and cheese, some potatoes, salmon, and bacon, plus a little fruit. I didn’t completely finish the omelet, bacon, or potatoes. The whole plate was shiny from the grease, and those three foods were the main culprits. Grease like that really bothers me, so I didn’t eat it all. But. Plate two. I got more fruit! The watermelon was lavender infused, and I also had a lavender bar. Lavender in food is such a weird experience and I don’t know how I feel about it haha. Anyone else had lavender food stuff? If so, whatcha think?? But yeah! Desserts. A pink champagne macaron, muffin things (I freakin love muffins), chocolate cake, chocolate strawberries aaand yeah. Twas yummy overall!
Also, throughout the day, had some of these classic bunny cookies hehe.
Then for dinner, I had a bowl of multigrain Cheerios. I wasn’t super hungry after all that lunch. But, I’ll probably snack on candy tonight while I try to finish my thesis haha.
How was your Easter?🐣

592 21 22 April, 2019
Bonsoir! Je viens à vous avec une requête aujourd'hui! Est-ce que vous avez des idées de quantités pour les repas? Est-ce que vous avez des idées comme repas? Des choses à me conseiller, que vous aimez? 
Je vous demande ça parce que en ce moment c'est assez difficile pour moi de respecter mon plan alimentaire (pour être honnête, il est passé aux oubliettes même). Merci d'avance si vous avez des astuces, des trucs...
Prenez soin de vous ❤
#edfighter #edrecovery #edfam #anafighter #anawarrior #health #mangermieux #mangersain #recoverywin #fearfood #healthyfood #dessert

Bonsoir! Je viens à vous avec une requête aujourd'hui! Est-ce que vous avez des idées de quantités pour les repas? Est-ce que vous avez des idées comme repas? Des choses à me conseiller, que vous aimez?
Je vous demande ça parce que en ce moment c'est assez difficile pour moi de respecter mon plan alimentaire (pour être honnête, il est passé aux oubliettes même). Merci d'avance si vous avez des astuces, des trucs...
Prenez soin de vous ❤
#edfighter #edrecovery #edfam #anafighter #anawarrior #health #mangermieux #mangersain #recoverywin #fearfood #healthyfood #dessert

223 16 7 May, 2019
Breakie breakie breakie breakie ☀️ I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and oh-so ready to smash some ana-ass! And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing! I promise an update is on its way 🌟🌸
💕 😉 ✨ 💪💕 😏 💪 ✨ 🌼 🌸🌿 Spread those recovery wings and set yourselves free 🕊🌻
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosa #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #nourishdontpunish #edfam #ana #anafamily #beatana #edwarrior #edfighter #anafighter #anawarrior #fearfood #recovery #anarecovery #strongnotskinny #warriors

Breakie breakie breakie breakie ☀️ I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and oh-so ready to smash some ana-ass! And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing! I promise an update is on its way 🌟🌸
💕 😉 ✨ 💪💕 😏 💪 ✨ 🌼 🌸🌿 Spread those recovery wings and set yourselves free 🕊🌻
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosa #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #nourishdontpunish #edfam #ana #anafamily #beatana #edwarrior #edfighter #anafighter #anawarrior #fearfood #recovery #anarecovery #strongnotskinny #warriors

111 2 22 May, 2019
Treatment low-down 💪🌸 I mentioned in my dinner post last night that yesterday I had met with my team and had some somewhat confronting (and, quite honestly, surprising) feedback. Although my team are happy with my progress (that being; a small amount of weight gain and increased intake) they are yet to be fully convinced that I’m capable of recovering safely and fully as an outpatient. .
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I was quite shocked to hear this, as I feel I have improved by leaps and bounds over the past few weeks. However, my psychiatrist (my team member who always provides me with those “reality check” moments throughout my illness) reminded me that despite the weight I have gained, I’m still very physically unstable. She told me if I were to contract any illness in my current state it could pose a serious danger to my health. .
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Because they feels we’ve exhausted the limited resources my hometown offers and closest cities offer, my team proceeded to ask if I would consider an admission to a clinic in Melbourne. For those of you who are unaware, Melbourne is in the state of Victoria and I live in Far North NSW, which means I would have to travel several hours by plane interstate to receive this treatment. .
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I’ve yet to accept or decline the admission offer as I wanted to put some thought into it. I’d be so accepting of any form of treatment and I’m so grateful to be privileged enough to have access to these resources, but at the same time I seriously don’t know if I can handle yet another admission. Although I’ve never been to this particular hospital, I’m so scared that I will become a revolving door case anorexia inpatient case. Not to mention the fact that I will have to move so far from my loved ones. .
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Sorry for the ramble! I’ll keep you posted on what the go is, but for the near-future I will still be at home. If anyone has ever been to the Melbourne Clinic I would love to hear from you!

Treatment low-down 💪🌸 I mentioned in my dinner post last night that yesterday I had met with my team and had some somewhat confronting (and, quite honestly, surprising) feedback. Although my team are happy with my progress (that being; a small amount of weight gain and increased intake) they are yet to be fully convinced that I’m capable of recovering safely and fully as an outpatient. .
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I was quite shocked to hear this, as I feel I have improved by leaps and bounds over the past few weeks. However, my psychiatrist (my team member who always provides me with those “reality check” moments throughout my illness) reminded me that despite the weight I have gained, I’m still very physically unstable. She told me if I were to contract any illness in my current state it could pose a serious danger to my health. .
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Because they feels we’ve exhausted the limited resources my hometown offers and closest cities offer, my team proceeded to ask if I would consider an admission to a clinic in Melbourne. For those of you who are unaware, Melbourne is in the state of Victoria and I live in Far North NSW, which means I would have to travel several hours by plane interstate to receive this treatment. .
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I’ve yet to accept or decline the admission offer as I wanted to put some thought into it. I’d be so accepting of any form of treatment and I’m so grateful to be privileged enough to have access to these resources, but at the same time I seriously don’t know if I can handle yet another admission. Although I’ve never been to this particular hospital, I’m so scared that I will become a revolving door case anorexia inpatient case. Not to mention the fact that I will have to move so far from my loved ones. .
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Sorry for the ramble! I’ll keep you posted on what the go is, but for the near-future I will still be at home. If anyone has ever been to the Melbourne Clinic I would love to hear from you!

192 18 23 hours ago
Taki pyszny obiadek dzisiaj serwowałam. Ziemniaki, kotlet z piersi kurczaka w pulchnej panierce z omletem po bokach mięsa z pozostałego jajka oraz domowej roboty korniszony 😍.
#anorexiarecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryfood #prorecovery #edfighter #anafighter #ananomore #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthynotskinny #healthyfood #instafood #foodlover #dinner #mittagessen #obiad #wiemcojem #jemzdrowo #goodfood #zdroweodżywanie #schabowy #pierśzkurczaka #ziemniaki #warzywa #jajka #omlet #kurczak #samozdrowie #eggs #potato

Taki pyszny obiadek dzisiaj serwowałam. Ziemniaki, kotlet z piersi kurczaka w pulchnej panierce z omletem po bokach mięsa z pozostałego jajka oraz domowej roboty korniszony 😍.
#anorexiarecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryfood #prorecovery #edfighter #anafighter #ananomore #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthynotskinny #healthyfood #instafood #foodlover #dinner #mittagessen #obiad #wiemcojem #jemzdrowo #goodfood #zdroweodżywanie #schabowy #pierśzkurczaka #ziemniaki #warzywa #jajka #omlet #kurczak #samozdrowie #eggs #potato

430 11 16 May, 2019